A Letter to My Mom

My tribute to my Mother that I read at her funeral.

Dear Mommy,

Thank you for being the best Mom ever. I miss you so much already. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I miss you bossing me around from the couch telling me where to put this or that and that I missed a spot cleaning the counters.

Thank you for showing me how to Love God. How to rely on Jesus for everything. Thank you for showing me how to have an unwavering faith that can sustain me in the good times and in any trials. Thank you for leading me to God and giving me such a solid foundation. I have never seen a faith like yours and I’m grateful for the way that this faith lives in me now, different from yours, my own, but still learned from you. Guided to me from you. I’m so grateful

Thank you for being such a loving and caring grandma. I know Kayden and Kendall were fully your greatest joys (besides Jordan and I of course. The girls adore you and will miss your hugs and your special care packages full of candy and all the treats that I would never buy for them. They will miss coming to your bedside and you giving them hard candies and opening up Easter care packages full to the brim with new outfits, dressy shoes, easter basket and so much sweets that we would have to hide. I will miss you calling me at the end of January reminding me to buy Valentines for the girls before the good ones are all sold out.

Thank you for driving me around for years and years to dance class. For practicing my dances with me making me do it again! And again! For waiting during all of my dance classes for me. For calling me to pray before auditions. For always telling me how loved and proud of me you were.

Thank you for being my best friend and my greatest supporter. You always pushed me to be exceptional and encouraged me in all that I did. I will miss calling you to choose outfits for events, to tell you about my day and your prayers for me.

Oh Wow! Your endless and lengthy prayers. I will miss them. Every single person in this room has been a recipient of your prayers whether they know it or not. Many knew because you prayed any chance you could. You even had the hospice nurse praying with you. I think she was agnostic, but you persisted on! The cashier at the store….they were getting a prayer. Someone you didn’t like;” Lets pray for them!” You prayed for so many people for their encouragement and up and out of whatever messy situation they had been through. With the firm belief that prayers always work! You loved it and it gave you so much joy.

I’ve been thinking about what your purpose here may have been here. Honestly, I don’t know, only God knows that. But if your purpose was to be the best Mom ever to me and Jordan. Loving us unconditionally and supporting us in all we did! You succeeded. You fulfilled your purpose.

If your purpose was to be an excellent wife, keeping a beautiful home and being a supportive and faithful partner. You succeeded. You did that so well! I know Dad is grateful to have had you for so long.

If your purpose was to elevate yourself and your family well above the means you were born into and be successful in a sales job you never could have imagined. To then live in almost all new brand houses coming from the projects of Jollick Manor in Washington PA, you did it! You succeeded!

I’m so so sad you’re not with us, but I never have been so at peace having seen the pain and torture you endured over the years fighting the disease and even more so the last few months. I know you’re resting well and I know without a shadow of a doubt you are with God.

Please watch over us. Please watch over me and the girls. Please send me signs. Send a gust of wind. Send me something so that I know you’re around. I promise to try my best to shine so that you can’t miss me from heaven.

Love you Mom,

Butterfly